Remember it's not about weight loss

Today is the first day I have felt human in a few weeks and for those of you that know me well I have been very frustrated at not being able to do the things I've wanted to.

I'm behind on my running schedule , I've missed Zumba and I've become addicted to X Weighted Families on Sky 2. There's nothing quite like the sight if sobbing fat people when you're eating dinner. They get on my tits a bit but it just reinforces that if people want to lose weight it's exercise that's gonna do it.

I'm also liking Biggest Losers and said to Nell if those fat biffas can do it, then the only thing stopping me is me.

But remember I said right at the beginning this is not about weight loss it's about giving me a goal after the cancer.

As it's the last day of the month I thought it was time to jump on the Wii Fit.....having been comfort eating chocs and crumpets coupled with no exercise I wasn't expecting much ......but I've actually lost 9lbs this month. Now that's a bit of a result I wasn't expecting.

They still haven't sorted out when I'm going back to work which is pissing me off a bit , and I'm seeing a counsellor this afternoon. Hope they know what they've let themselves in for!!!

A right telling off

Today I hauled my sorry ass out of bed nice and early, pulled on my training gear and went to the gym.

Alana was waiting with my new routine and she's covered all the bases. She didn't even let me finish the warm up before she told me off for being there and not resting!!! Duly nagged i said I wouldn't do any of the card stuff and she agreed to show me the rest of the routine.

I am a very naughty girl! Golden rule - you do not exercise when you have a chest infection , I have been told. But you know what a fickle fanny I am, I want to get on with this training lark for the 1/2 marathon. I don't want to be behind but I know she's talking sense.

No Zumba again for me this week then :(

Different day , different drugs

Oh well , this morning trip to the GP was all I could have expected. Different antibiotics and told to take it easy for the next few days.

What a load of bollocks! I couldn't be arsed to tell her about the fact I have a goal to reach and at this rate I'll be 2 weeks behind , I really couldn't be arsed to explain when she said take a few days off work to recover, all the palaver I'm having actually getting back to work! To be quite honest I'm really fed up with it all .I'm cancer free , there's no way something simple like a frigging chest and water infection should be making me feel this shit. Don't they know who I am ?

Suppose the good thing is my blood pressure is normal and although I'm peeing White blood cells , they're not growing anything. The only thing the GP could suggest would be blood tests so I'm booked in again next week.

I've cancelled yoga this afternoon as I'm not in the right frame of mind to handle cheery people , to be quite honest I wish the world would just bugger off!

Red tape and bloody noses

I was all set to go back to work today - only for 4 hours but it was a start. So by 9:30 I was showered, dressed with hair all done ready to face the day. At 10 I get a call from the boss , apparently we have to go though Crapcentures return to work process before I can officially start. It's more red tape and paperwork designed to protect us all ....to stop me doing too much too soon , and to give an opt out of I don't cut the mustard. Fair enough, but why will they only accept 'paperwork ' in this digital age ? I hope they'll go on the scanned copy I sent them - looks like I have another 7-10 days to go.

I wasn't going to waste the time so I've cleared down some emails and went on a conference call.

There 's something odd going on in my body at the moment. Ever since the I've started the antibiotics for the chest infection I've been having nose bleeds. I have never had them before in my life ....and I must say I don't like them. Got another docs appointment tomorrow to see what's going on.

Cos of the chest infection I've cancelled my massage for today , didn't think it was fair on either of us!!

I'm hoping to get my running shoes on this week......I can't be falling too far behind!

More drugs and Alana says yes!

Went to GP and it turns out I've been harbouring a very nasty chest and water infection. No wonder I feel like shit. I've mega antibiotics and some new sleeping tablets to try so with a bit of luck I'll be on the mend ready to start work on Monday.

On the positive side I went and saw Alana at Bannatynnes for my review. She's so pleased that I'm cancer free and that I've signed up for the half marathon.

She'll put together a plan for me and I'll go see her again on Sunday if I'm up to it.

I'm not feeling too chipper at the mo, but I'm sure once the drugs start to kick in I will be fine

Best made plans!

Hubby and I have been feeling under par all week. He's got a flu type thing , he doesn't do man flu - he's too much of a man for that , and I have been battling with a very bad chest and cough due to the pollen.

I managed yoga yesterday and a cranial sacral therapy session but I must admit today I'm totally pooped! My head aches, I feel sick and my eyes hurt.

I'm going to be really sensible and put back my training plan by one week, although I'm determined to Zumba tomorrow.

Seeing the GP Friday so she can nag me about my breathing and let me know what the damage is . More drugs to take I expect.

What's really annoying is I was planning to go to Portsmouth this weekend, but now Darius and Mum will have to wait a bit longer .

A liitle behind

Due to the general feeling of yuckness and not being able to breathe , I didn't do my second training run last week. My wonderful trainer said I should listen to my body and not push things if it didn't feel right - so I haven't! I think it's important not to put myself off by doing something silly at such an early stage.

So this week I'm on catch up.

Today I had a Thai foot massage and if you've never had one you don't know what you're missing, it's fab! But the BIG news is now I've been declared cancer free I can now have full body again! Fantastic news as I think a few sports massages will be needed along the way to the 1/2 marathon!

Tomorrow I'm gonna try sacral cranial therapy for my breathing , but I'm also seeing the GP Friday as next week I go back to work.